About Me - The Beginning

So, if you've come to this blog, I probably know a good bit about why you are here and how you feel. Because I was, for a very long time, where you might be right now. Sometimes, I really don't like to remember back, but when I do, I am grateful because I learned so much about myself along the way.

But first, a bit of background. My name is Sara. I'm thirty something. Most people close to me tell me that I am attractive, friendly, and intelligent. I am not socially inept (at least I think I'm not) and as far as I know, there isn't something obviously wrong with me.

I have lot of friends, a fulfilling career, and can converse with just about anyone. In general, I have always had a lot to be grateful for and a lot going for me.

But for what I later learned were reoccurring reasons and issues, I kept attracting men who were wrong for me and ended up in relationships that failed. Some were just losers. Some were bad boys. Some were nice guys who just didn't end up being right for me or who couldn't hold my interest.

With one in particular, I had a 3 1/2 year very serious relationship that ended quite badly and painfully. Truthfully, it shattered my heart and left me unable to even consider relationships for a very long time.

But, as my 30th birthday approached and I saw all of my friends, former roommates, and coworkers pairing off and getting married, I decided to get really serious about seeing if I could find the person who I was meant to be with, a soul mate if you will.

It occurred to me that I had spent more time researching a computer than I did about learning how to find the RIGHT person that I wanted to spend and rest of my life with. I really wanted and needed to stop making and repeating the same mistakes over and over.

And, deep down in my heart, (even though I told myself I was doing just fine,) there was a void in my life. I wanted so much to find someone that I could share things with. Maybe I was a romantic or just seeing things through rose colored glasses, but I believe there is someone out there for every one. I wanted so badly to find that person for me.

So, I tried really hard to evaluate where I went wrong before and just started trying to put myself out there, but it was an unbelievable disaster - at least at first.